The land along the shoreline of the bay was saturated with
the snow that was melting. Anna walked on
the raised trail that ran alongside this wetland searching for one of her
favourite trees. She was in the midst of
her spring ritual of renewing her relationship with Willow. When Anna was a young girl, a man at a tree
nursery had taught her how to cut Pussywillow branches and put them in water
until they rooted. He had told her that
if she planted those three rooted stems, a Pussywillow bush would grow from
it. He had taught her this after Anna’s father
had refused her request to buy this tree that she had fallen in love with at
first sight. She had followed the man’s
instructions and the branches did magically send out long white roots into the
jar of water she had placed them in. Her
father had let her plant them in the garden and they had indeed grown into a
Pussywillow bush that was twenty feet high by the time she herself had grown
up. This was Anna’s first experience of
co-creating with nature and it set the tone for her whole life.
As a young mother, Anna’s family had moved frequently to accommodate
the growing number of children. She
returned to her parents’ home frequently and visited the Pussywillow which had
the usual ups and downs of trees; leaves eaten by insects, older branches
rotting and falling off and occasionally catastrophic damage from winter storms.
The Pussywillow had always bounced back, growing new stems, branches and
leaves. It loved it in the yard which
flooded every spring. Willows love
water. The Ancient Celts named Willow
the Queen of the Water because of that and this tree was associated with the
Moon and Feminine qualities as well.
Each spring, Anna, as an adult would cut three stems from
the tree and take them home to root just like she had as a child. She planted those Pussywillows in every place
that she lived. As a mother, she cared
for her children and she cared for her willows.
The Pussywillow that she had planted as a girl was a male tree. It only produced male catkins, those soft,
silvery “pussies” that gave the tree it’s name.
Not only did the stems root in the water, but the male catkins went on
to produce golden pollen that soon covered the grey fuzzy kittens. It wasn’t until Anna was an older woman that
she saw her first female pussywillow tree.
The female catkins had raised green stalks that contained the
ovaries. Once pollinated by wind or the
bees that used the pollen as early spring food, the seeds would form and seed
pods would cover the catkin. Anna had
learned that these seeds would fly in the wind along with the fluff from the
catkin and so they needed to be light.
They contained no endosperm, so they had to land in wet soil and take
root immediately. Willows also had a fibrous
root structure that would send up shoots easily and this was the more successful
form of procreation.
In fact, Willows were so good at sending up new shoots,
even from cut trunks and branches that Anna’s ancestors had practiced coppicing
or cutting the branches off regularly on certain trees so that there was a
constant supply of building materials.
They had used flexible willow branches in wattling or weaving the stems to
build baskets, furniture, walls for buildings, boats and fences.
The Weeping Willow variety was brought from China to the
United Kingdom roughly three hundred years ago and subsequently to North
America were Anna lived. Anna had grown
up with a Weeping Willow as well in her backyard. She loved the graceful dance of the long
stems in the wind and as a child she liked to sit inside the ring of branches
and leaves that swept the grass and formed a moving wall as well as a “secret
hiding spot.” As the tree grew, so did Anna
and there came a time when she wanted to climb it. But, she didn’t like heights. She felt the force pulling her up and the
fear anchoring her to the ground. Somehow,
she felt the Weeping Willow urge her to climb up into its branches and sit
awhile. The idea came to her that if she
did that, she might get over the fear of being there. As an adult, Anna learned that desensitizing is
one way to heal phobias but she didn’t know that as a child. Anna felt that the Willow had whispered that
to her child self. And so, Anna did
spend time sitting in the willow. She
did get used to being there with the fear and she never fell out of the
tree. The Willow held her like a
mother. And Anna learned that fear can
be present but it didn’t have to stop her following the urgings of life, not
with the Willow Mother to hold her, not with Mother Earth to hold her.
Anna didn’t know that her ancestors, the Celts had
understood that Willow can help with letting feelings flow and that it’s gift
was tears. She didn’t know that this
tree was believed to strengthen intuition, inspiration and imagination. She didn’t know that her ancestors made harps
out of willow so that the tree could sing.
But she did know how to listen to this tree and follow its urgings.
Lost in her thoughts and memories Anna had stopped walking.
Suddenly, she snapped back to the present moment and looked around her. There, in the wet land beside the trail was a
large Pussywillow bush covered in soft silvery catkins. She took a sharp inbreath in surprise and then
burst out laughing. Her body had found
the tree while her mind was miles and years away. Anna took out a little penknife from her
pocket and after receiving permission from the tree to take three branches, she
cut them and placed the cut ends in a plastic bag to keep the ends moist. She rubbed the soft catkins on the side of
her face like a cat and smiled at the feeling of her old friends. Her child self and crone self were present
together in that moment.
Since the weather was warm and spring was pulsing under her
feet, Anna kept on walking. There were
pussywillows everywhere and the catkins were shining in the spring sun. She came across some female catkins and
stopped to examine their interesting structure.
The ovaries looked like antennae to her and she couldn’t believe that
she had spent so much of her life only seeing male catkins. Now that she knew what female catkins looked
like and she paid closer attention, she could see them here and there. “She was not too old to learn a few new
things she thought,” as she chuckled to herself.
After a few minutes, Anna came to where a huge old Weeping
Willow grew. Some of its giant branches had
grown sideways and some rested on the earth.
Some had rotted and snapped off.
They lay strewn about the base of the tree like old bones. Hundreds of new yellow shoots grew out of the
scars left by the fallen branches, like hackles on a cat. The crone tree’s life story was told in the
branches and stems and bones. And yet
she radiated strength and resilience.
Anna could see how Willow represented the three aspects of women. Willow had the flexibility of the maiden, the
nurturing and strong procreative ability of the mother and the strength of the
crone.
Anna climbed down the embankment and made her way to the
old Willow. She placed her hands on the
warm bark and felt the energy of moving water.
She knew that Willow was cleansing the water she took in from her roots
from pollution and that she would expire clean water out through her leaves. As she rested there, Anna became aware of the
sadness that she was keeping under the surface.
Sadness from so much change, loss and uncertainty. She breathed into that sadness and it flooded
up within her all the way to her tear ducts. She let the feelings flow as she
kept her hands on Willow, the comforting Grandmother who had seen it all
before. After a time, the feelings
floated away and Anna took a deep cleansing breath. She felt ready to make her way home. But, before she left, she once again took out
her knife and after getting permission from the tree, she cut one long waving
stem.
After walking for a few more minutes, Anna once again
climbed down to the wetland and she planted the stem into the wet earth. She knew that she was taking part in the
procreative cycle of Willow and at the same time, creating a symbol for her
ability to reimagine her life and to create something new. Anna’s life story was woven through with
Willow. They were wattled together just
as her ancestors’ from across the ocean had been. She imagined a woven willow basket with
coloured wool and thread added to it. She imagined the basket filled with co-creations.
And she knew that this was her life story.